The “After” Myth

Can Anybody Hear Me?

DURING

After.

It’s here.

In my first post, Before, 3 years ago, I said “I’m not to After yet, but I’m closer to After than to Before.”

I now weigh 117 – 120 pounds (depending on the day), and standing at 5-foot 6-inches, that measurement means that After is very, very here. But, before you congratulate me, dear readers…if I have any…and dear friends and family who I know follow this blog… I have to come clean with you: I don’t feel like I’m at After. I’m terrified of being at After. And, I don’t like that After is here.

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The tagline of my blog is “uncovering myself one pound at a time.” For most of this blog, I’ve spoken strongly about how my relationship with food and myself was what caused my weight struggles. I stand by that. The thing is, the symptoms have resolved faster than I’ve been able to…

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DIY Weightlifting Platform with Squat Stand Attached

Ohh good idea

Garage Gym Reviews

A weightlifting platform is something that is not needed. It takes up a lot of space, is very heavy, and can be somewhat costly. However, if you are practicing the olympic lifts I say without a doubt that it is an essential piece to your garage gym. I see it being similar to using a bearing barbell. If you’ve never used one, you don’t know what you’re missing. However, once you feel the soles of your weightlifting shoes pound onto the wooden platform during a split jerk, you can’t go back. Also, it deadens the sound of the barbell which is good for your neighbors or sleeping children. So I decided to make one of my own, and it’s been a wonderful addition to my garage.

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She’s gorgeous

What You Will Need:

Supplies:

  • 4  4’x8′ 3/4″ Pieces of Cheap Plywood
  • 1 4’x8′ 3/4″ Piece of Quality Plywood (A/B or A/C…

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Progress and Release

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Well there it is. For the world to see. The top photo is from August 18, the day I started doing the Focus T25 workouts. I have had many trials through the program including redoing week 4 because I had a death in the family and had to travel to Ohio. But here I am 11 weeks later in the bottom photo taken this morning. Alpha and Beta complete, Gamma started today. My goals are more important today than ever before. Stronger, slimmer, and more confident. I was so hesitant to post this ANYWHERE online. Even my “closed”, “secret” Facebook groups. I felt afraid of judgement and ashamed of my body. Then I realized that I have absolutely NOTHING to feel that way for. I have made mistakes. I have fallen. I have failed. But I have also gotten back up, risen, and conquered the many things that I allowed to hold me back. This should be a moment that I take to feel great about myself and my progress. We all start somewhere. We all have a journey. Here is part of mine so that it might help to inspire or motivate, or give hope to someone else who is out there thinking about doing something to change themselves and wondering will they succeed. Will they make it? Will they fail? The first step is usually the most difficult. This was my first step to total transparency. I pray that it inspires someone, helps someone, motivates someone.

Have a great day!

~~Kaneka~~

Resolution

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Why do we wait for January 1 to change the things we don’t like about our behavior or habits? Resolve to change today and come January 1 it’ll be a habit. You can become a new you any day of the year, all it takes is realization and growth.

Have weight loss goals? Savings goal? Family goal? Why wait 2 months? Jump right in today. Start by making small changes. A snowball rolling downhill today is an avalanche tomorrow.

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I started in July because I had to. My brother fell ill and at 35 and the issues he has are very scary. There are far too many hereditary diseases in my family to continue to let my health remain at risk. I have to be proactive if I don’t want to end up on medication for the rest of my life. The road is slow. I don’t always eat right, I don’t always do my workouts but I’m still here, still going. In my previous attempts I would have given up already. My resolution EVERYDAY is to keep going on my journey.

Happy Wednesday!

Tried something new

My daughter and husband love Mexican food. No really, they do. If they could eat it everyday I’m sure they would. I love it too, not as much as they do, but it is yummy. Some of the fixins for Mexican food aren’t really friendly to someone who is on a journey to lose weight. Nope, not the cheese, the flour tortillas, or the fried chips. Doesn’t work for me. So I decided to find an alternative that would work for me and that my family would love.

Last night I made spaghetti squash taco bowls. My daughter was afraid at first, but then she dug right in.

I roasted the squash on Sunday so I wouldn’t have to wait for it. I tried a crock pot method to cook one last week and it was awful. It was mushy and ugh and I won’t do that again. Ruined it for me.

So yesterday I got home from work, took out the squash and shredded the insides with a fork while I preheated the oven to 350.

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Covered it with ground turkey/ground beef mixture that I also cooked on Sunday.

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Added some cheese (forgot to take a picture of that step). And popped it in the oven for 30 minutes. Then I cut it not really in half and topped it with some salsa, 0% fat Fage Greek yogurt, tapatio hot sauce, and black olives because I love them.

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It was delicious and my daughter and I both devoured our “half”.

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What have you tried that’s a new spin on something you love?

Have a terrific Tuesday Lovelies!!

~~Kaneka~~

Absent

I have been absent. Not from life or even social media, but from my blog. This is no way to treat my readers and no way to utilize this blog as I intended to. How am I accountable if I’m absent? Well i could argue that I still post in my Facebook like page almost daily, I am active in my fitness groups, I post on Instagram, but that isn’t my blog. The place where I came to empty my feelings and frustrations. The place where I can ramble without a care.

Well I’m back. I’m taking The Daily Post’s Blogging 101 course over the next few weeks and I’ll be updating my blog in the process. I am returning to 3-4 posts a week, and continuous updates on my fitness journey.

Too late to turn back.

What have I gotten myself into? How much am I going to take on? Why was this a good idea? Can I live up to the hype that I’ve created for myself in my head? Will I finish this journey? Will I reach my goals? Can I?

Questions I have asked myself over the last few days. Dealing with death is never easy. Dealing with the death of someone you treasured is even harder. Dealing with the thought that eventually you’ll lose others is a very depressing situation. This is what I have been dealing with. This has ruled my mindset over the last couple of weeks. I’ve still been getting my workouts in, but I haven’t been willing to share anything more of myself. These feelings I thought I’d get over quickly aren’t dissipating. They are taking up refuge and making me crazy. They are horrifying and I hate to feel this way. It isn’t healthy and I am doing everything I can to shake it off. It isn’t easy in some situations but I’m talking about my feelings and getting it all out.

Well with that said I’ve been working hard at my fitness. Still logging my #giveit100 posts and uploading a video a day to Instagram. I’m still here, just not as present. As of today I’ll be working on that presence. I must get out of this funk. It is far too late to turn back now.

Have a great day lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

Getting back on

Well. I’ve traveled to my birthplace and spent some much needed time with my family as we dealt with the loss of my uncle. I wasn’t strict with my eating, at all. To be honest I ate and drank whatever was around. I didn’t binge, but I didn’t choose my meals as I have been. For a split second I felt a little guilty for not being disciplined in my eating. Then I remembered that I really shouldn’t focus on that. I was dealing with a lot while trying to help my cousin deal as well. It was a very emotionally stressful time and sometimes not limiting choices helps the coping process (or at least it does in my head).

I’m back to reality and will not let that lackadaisical approach to my nutrition continue. Packed my lunch today, worked out this morning, and intend to do another T25 workout this evening just for good measure. Death is difficult to deal with, and it can be a catalyst to get you off track. I lost a little footing toward the end of last week, but I’ve regained it and I’m going to keep on trekking!

How do you cope with things that trigger your emotional eating?

Happy Tuesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

HELP!!

Emotional eating is an issue that I have. Many people do. What do you do to curb that when dealing with things in life that get you down? I am dealing with the death of a very close family member and I am doing everything I can not to derail my efforts. I have to say that I haven’t succeeded today. I’ve had a handful of mini candy bars and a small bag of cookies.

How do you handle times like this?

Tasty Tanka

Yet another tanka on this Wednesday…. Yes, it is about food. Some of food that I prepared for myself to eat at work today. 

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Tomatoes and cukes

Cold balsamic vinaigrette

Tuna and salad

Some celery and hummus

And even more cucumber.

 

The structure of tanka is that of a haiku followed by two additional lines of seven syllables each: 5-7-5-7-7.

Have a Wonderful Wednesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~