Monthly Archives: September 2014

Too late to turn back.

What have I gotten myself into? How much am I going to take on? Why was this a good idea? Can I live up to the hype that I’ve created for myself in my head? Will I finish this journey? Will I reach my goals? Can I?

Questions I have asked myself over the last few days. Dealing with death is never easy. Dealing with the death of someone you treasured is even harder. Dealing with the thought that eventually you’ll lose others is a very depressing situation. This is what I have been dealing with. This has ruled my mindset over the last couple of weeks. I’ve still been getting my workouts in, but I haven’t been willing to share anything more of myself. These feelings I thought I’d get over quickly aren’t dissipating. They are taking up refuge and making me crazy. They are horrifying and I hate to feel this way. It isn’t healthy and I am doing everything I can to shake it off. It isn’t easy in some situations but I’m talking about my feelings and getting it all out.

Well with that said I’ve been working hard at my fitness. Still logging my #giveit100 posts and uploading a video a day to Instagram. I’m still here, just not as present. As of today I’ll be working on that presence. I must get out of this funk. It is far too late to turn back now.

Have a great day lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

Getting back on

Well. I’ve traveled to my birthplace and spent some much needed time with my family as we dealt with the loss of my uncle. I wasn’t strict with my eating, at all. To be honest I ate and drank whatever was around. I didn’t binge, but I didn’t choose my meals as I have been. For a split second I felt a little guilty for not being disciplined in my eating. Then I remembered that I really shouldn’t focus on that. I was dealing with a lot while trying to help my cousin deal as well. It was a very emotionally stressful time and sometimes not limiting choices helps the coping process (or at least it does in my head).

I’m back to reality and will not let that lackadaisical approach to my nutrition continue. Packed my lunch today, worked out this morning, and intend to do another T25 workout this evening just for good measure. Death is difficult to deal with, and it can be a catalyst to get you off track. I lost a little footing toward the end of last week, but I’ve regained it and I’m going to keep on trekking!

How do you cope with things that trigger your emotional eating?

Happy Tuesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

HELP!!

Emotional eating is an issue that I have. Many people do. What do you do to curb that when dealing with things in life that get you down? I am dealing with the death of a very close family member and I am doing everything I can not to derail my efforts. I have to say that I haven’t succeeded today. I’ve had a handful of mini candy bars and a small bag of cookies.

How do you handle times like this?

Tasty Tanka

Yet another tanka on this Wednesday…. Yes, it is about food. Some of food that I prepared for myself to eat at work today. 

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Tomatoes and cukes

Cold balsamic vinaigrette

Tuna and salad

Some celery and hummus

And even more cucumber.

 

The structure of tanka is that of a haiku followed by two additional lines of seven syllables each: 5-7-5-7-7.

Have a Wonderful Wednesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

Tuesday Tanka

 Happy Tuesday!!!

 

In response to The Daily Post’s writing challenge, Full Tanka, I am going to recap my holiday weekend in tanka! 

Labor Day weekend.

Potato salad and cake

Cheesy dip and ribs.

Birthday party for nephew

Also a workout or two. 

The structure of tanka is that of a haiku followed by two additional lines of seven syllables each: 5-7-5-7-7.

Hope this TUESDAY finds you in great health and amazing mood! 

Have a wonderful day Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~