Category Archives: Battles

Too late to turn back.

What have I gotten myself into? How much am I going to take on? Why was this a good idea? Can I live up to the hype that I’ve created for myself in my head? Will I finish this journey? Will I reach my goals? Can I?

Questions I have asked myself over the last few days. Dealing with death is never easy. Dealing with the death of someone you treasured is even harder. Dealing with the thought that eventually you’ll lose others is a very depressing situation. This is what I have been dealing with. This has ruled my mindset over the last couple of weeks. I’ve still been getting my workouts in, but I haven’t been willing to share anything more of myself. These feelings I thought I’d get over quickly aren’t dissipating. They are taking up refuge and making me crazy. They are horrifying and I hate to feel this way. It isn’t healthy and I am doing everything I can to shake it off. It isn’t easy in some situations but I’m talking about my feelings and getting it all out.

Well with that said I’ve been working hard at my fitness. Still logging my #giveit100 posts and uploading a video a day to Instagram. I’m still here, just not as present. As of today I’ll be working on that presence. I must get out of this funk. It is far too late to turn back now.

Have a great day lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

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Getting back on

Well. I’ve traveled to my birthplace and spent some much needed time with my family as we dealt with the loss of my uncle. I wasn’t strict with my eating, at all. To be honest I ate and drank whatever was around. I didn’t binge, but I didn’t choose my meals as I have been. For a split second I felt a little guilty for not being disciplined in my eating. Then I remembered that I really shouldn’t focus on that. I was dealing with a lot while trying to help my cousin deal as well. It was a very emotionally stressful time and sometimes not limiting choices helps the coping process (or at least it does in my head).

I’m back to reality and will not let that lackadaisical approach to my nutrition continue. Packed my lunch today, worked out this morning, and intend to do another T25 workout this evening just for good measure. Death is difficult to deal with, and it can be a catalyst to get you off track. I lost a little footing toward the end of last week, but I’ve regained it and I’m going to keep on trekking!

How do you cope with things that trigger your emotional eating?

Happy Tuesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

Willpower

T.G.I.F

It seems like every other day at work something is being celebrated. Which means an overabundance of CUPCAKES. Beautifully decorated and smelling delectable. I have worked very hard these past three weeks to abstain, and today is no different. No cupcake for me, even though I want one so badly. It is even more difficult to refrain when I am baking the wonderful treats in my own kitchen. So I haven’t done any baking and probably won’t until the holiday season rolls around. 

This doesn’t mean that I will never be able to enjoy sweets. It means that my goals are more important than that temporary satisfaction. My willpower is intact as this week closes. I have a few days left on the #21dayfix and I want to close it off with a bang! 

Happy Friday lovelies! I hope this weekends greets you with good feelings and good choices. 

~~Kaneka~~

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I just don’t want to.

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Nope.

Nope.

Not going to do it.

I’ll do it later.

That was me this morning. 5 am alarm going off. I’m still tired because I didn’t go to sleep until almost midnight. That tends to happen when my husband isn’t home. I get restless. Insomnia is my pal on those nights. Well insomnia and my dog Fanci. She is always right there with me when he isn’t home. My husband is in the Navy and yesterday was his duty day. He had to stay onboard the ship with the duty section so that everyone else could go home to their families. For those military wives out there, you know what I am talking about.

Well when I can’t sleep, naturally I don’t want to get up at my normal time in the morning. Nope. Don’t want to do it. AT ALL. I went back to sleep for 10 minutes. By then my dog wanted to go outside so she was nudging my face and shaking so the tags on her collar jingled together. Fanci, just 5 more minutes PLEASE. I turn on the television for background noise because I do intend to get up to workout but I just need a few more minutes with my eyes closed. Then I think to myself, if I go back to sleep and just get up at 6 I can feel more rested and I can just do my workout this evening. I hear Montel Willaims’ voice on the tv, then another very distinct voice. One I’ve heard every morning for the past couple of weeks. Telling me to keep it up, push through it, “you can do anything for 60 seconds”, Autumn Calabrese. My eyes flutter open and on the tv is the infomercial for 21 Day Fix. Fitting since that is the workout I am trying NOT to do right now, sleep sounds a lot better. I look at the clock and it is 5:18, sigh, get up Kaneka. Get up. Ok, Ok, Ok. I’m up.

This morning was a struggle. We all have those times when we just do not want to do it, do not want to work out, do not want to get up. I understand. It is a battle that I have often. Far too often if I am honest. Today I won that battle. I am victorious and I live to fight another day!

I got up, I did my Upper Fix, I made my breakfast, I started dinner (in the crockpot), I packed my lunch, I got showered and dressed and I headed out to work. I did it. It wasn’t easy or simple or even logical. But my workout for the day is done. I didn’t give in today. I didn’t allow myself to talk me out of doing what I have dedicated to do, for me. I need this. I needed that pep talk. I needed to be able to overcome my own “limitations”. And I did.

There is a different message on the chalkboard behind them for every workout. Today’s was “It doesn’t get easier, you get stronger”. I felt that and it empowered me to give it my all during my workout today. I am so glad that I got up and got it done.

It doesn't get easier You just get better

Do you have a story about how you got over a hump in your routine? Had to fight yourself to get your workout done? Didn’t succeed in that fight? I want to hear your story. I want to encourage you in your journey. Please share below.

Have a TERRIFIC TUESDAY lovelies!!

~~Kaneka~~