Category Archives: Determination

Progress and Release

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Well there it is. For the world to see. The top photo is from August 18, the day I started doing the Focus T25 workouts. I have had many trials through the program including redoing week 4 because I had a death in the family and had to travel to Ohio. But here I am 11 weeks later in the bottom photo taken this morning. Alpha and Beta complete, Gamma started today. My goals are more important today than ever before. Stronger, slimmer, and more confident. I was so hesitant to post this ANYWHERE online. Even my “closed”, “secret” Facebook groups. I felt afraid of judgement and ashamed of my body. Then I realized that I have absolutely NOTHING to feel that way for. I have made mistakes. I have fallen. I have failed. But I have also gotten back up, risen, and conquered the many things that I allowed to hold me back. This should be a moment that I take to feel great about myself and my progress. We all start somewhere. We all have a journey. Here is part of mine so that it might help to inspire or motivate, or give hope to someone else who is out there thinking about doing something to change themselves and wondering will they succeed. Will they make it? Will they fail? The first step is usually the most difficult. This was my first step to total transparency. I pray that it inspires someone, helps someone, motivates someone.

Have a great day!

~~Kaneka~~

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Absent

I have been absent. Not from life or even social media, but from my blog. This is no way to treat my readers and no way to utilize this blog as I intended to. How am I accountable if I’m absent? Well i could argue that I still post in my Facebook like page almost daily, I am active in my fitness groups, I post on Instagram, but that isn’t my blog. The place where I came to empty my feelings and frustrations. The place where I can ramble without a care.

Well I’m back. I’m taking The Daily Post’s Blogging 101 course over the next few weeks and I’ll be updating my blog in the process. I am returning to 3-4 posts a week, and continuous updates on my fitness journey.

Getting back on

Well. I’ve traveled to my birthplace and spent some much needed time with my family as we dealt with the loss of my uncle. I wasn’t strict with my eating, at all. To be honest I ate and drank whatever was around. I didn’t binge, but I didn’t choose my meals as I have been. For a split second I felt a little guilty for not being disciplined in my eating. Then I remembered that I really shouldn’t focus on that. I was dealing with a lot while trying to help my cousin deal as well. It was a very emotionally stressful time and sometimes not limiting choices helps the coping process (or at least it does in my head).

I’m back to reality and will not let that lackadaisical approach to my nutrition continue. Packed my lunch today, worked out this morning, and intend to do another T25 workout this evening just for good measure. Death is difficult to deal with, and it can be a catalyst to get you off track. I lost a little footing toward the end of last week, but I’ve regained it and I’m going to keep on trekking!

How do you cope with things that trigger your emotional eating?

Happy Tuesday Lovelies!

~~Kaneka~~

What a week!

And just like that it is Thursday. 

 

I guess I have been so consumed with ensuring that I post my videos on my Give it 100 page that I haven’t finished a thought on my blog on the day I intended to. I have started so many drafts this week it is amazing. 

For now I’d like to touch on consistency. I tend to lack consistency in some aspects of my life. I start 1000 projects at the same time with fervor that dies down ever so slowly until it comes to a point where I wonder if I’ll ever finish them. Case in point, remember that chair I told you about? Well my chair is still sitting in my garage unfinished. I take on so much and end up overwhelmed by the tasks that I decide to do, then I fizzle and burn out. My steam only lasts so long. 

Well this time I will NOT allow my fire to dim. I will continue to push through this fitness journey and I will be victorious in the end. That is one of the reasons for this blog right. For me to keep my accountability and focus on being consistent. Well I got it. I’m giving it my all and I’m even going to finish that chair this weekend. Yup. I’ll post about it Monday!

Have a great Thursday Lovelies

~~Kaneka~~

Crazy?

Succeed

Well it is FRIDAY!!!! Yippee! Friday for me means DOUBLES DAY. I have been doing the Focus T25 workouts this week. Today is day 5, Friday, doubles day. Yup. I have to go home and do ANOTHER workout. This morning was Lower FOCUS. And boy oh boy, I need new legs. I am excited that tomorrow is a “day off”. I’m planning to go on a LONG walk through Great Dismal Swamp which is VERY close to my house. I’ll consider that active recovery and Sunday will actually be a rest day, WHEW a rest day. I haven’t had one of those in almost a month. 

I started a #giveit100 challenge with myself. If you haven’t heard of Give It 100 (I hadn’t until a few days ago) it is a really cool website where you decide to do something everyday for 100, 365, or unlimited days. I have seen some people teaching themselves to play instruments, learning a new language, learning how to do unsupported handstands, pushups, and fitness. Everyday you would post a video of you doing whatever you have decided to do for the 100 days. It takes the first 10 seconds of the video. I feel like this can be another layer of MY accountability to myself. If I don’t post there everyday then I haven’t fulfilled my goals to myself. Check it out here

This week has been successful in my fitness goals and my eating. I’m going to make these goals a reality and I am going to do everything in my power to get to a healthier me. 

Life… A Spectator Sport?

Working for change, stepping outside the box, doing something different. Different. DIFFERENT. That word scares me. That word scares many people.

When you strive for something other than you have, be it health and fitness, education, promotion, whatever, there will be onlookers. People who will stand on the sidelines and just observe. They won’t interact, comment, or interfere but they are watching. Intently. And waiting for something to happen. Anything. Some of them are secretly rooting for you. Some are even hoping you succeed. Others are hoping that you do not succeed because in your failure they rejoice or they resolve not to attempt change themselves.

I had this epiphany yesterday morning (I started writing this yesterday) because I post and post on my Facebook fitness page just so I don’t overload my “friends” on my regular page with my fitness journey. (typing this I realize how screwed up this logic is).

But I have people who follow the page and sometimes click the like button, but majority of them do not interact. My success won’t be affected by the lack of interaction but I am screaming for accountability partners everywhere I go! Seriously. At work, at the grocery store, everywhere. I am determined to accomplish these goals. My determination may help someone on my way, and in turn maybe they’ll interact and encourage, comment and rejoice in triumph with me. I want us all to reach the top and we can whether it is individually or all together!

I guess it’s frustrating to know that some people aren’t ready for a change. I’m going to keep on trucking and make sure they know I’m here when they are ready.

Until next time lovelies!
~~Kaneka~~

Push through.

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Whew! Today was the cardio fix and boy thirty minutes of intensity that includes mountain climbers AND burpees is enough to make anyone want to tap out. Seriously.

I had a great night and even got up when my husband did at 4 today instead of sleeping until my usual 5. Workouts like this can definitely be a driving force and a deterrent at the same d$#/ time.

I got through it though. Worked it right on out, sweat was dripping, and at the end I was proud and tired which is a good combination in my eyes.

Last night dinner was turkey/ground beef burgers again at my husband’s insistence. For them I made sweet potato fries, for me oven roasted artichoke hearts.
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I have got to get better at remembering to take pictures while I’m cooking. It usually slips my mind until the absolute last minute, like here where I only have a photo of the cooked artichokes. *shrug* They were delicious and if you’d like to make them I’ve included the recipe and a link to Cook For Your Life where I found it. I think they’ll be great on a salad.

Roasted Artichoke Hearts

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Edited to add the recipe for the artichokes because of course I forgot!

Achieve

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Sometimes I need encouragement and a reminder. I am stronger than my excuses. I will achieve greatness. I will learn a lot along the way. No excuses can stop me!

Weigh in Wednesday (technically my weigh in day is Sunday but I’m obsessed right now, no lectures about fluctuation please) has me 9 lbs down since my start less than two weeks ago. Though I’m not a slave to the scale and eventually I’m going to have my husband hide it, a little push is good for me this early on. The funny thing is, had I been the same or gained I would still be happy because I know that I am building muscle in the process and muscle burns more calories.

Have a great Friday Eve lovelies!
~~Kaneka~~

I just don’t want to.

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Nope.

Nope.

Not going to do it.

I’ll do it later.

That was me this morning. 5 am alarm going off. I’m still tired because I didn’t go to sleep until almost midnight. That tends to happen when my husband isn’t home. I get restless. Insomnia is my pal on those nights. Well insomnia and my dog Fanci. She is always right there with me when he isn’t home. My husband is in the Navy and yesterday was his duty day. He had to stay onboard the ship with the duty section so that everyone else could go home to their families. For those military wives out there, you know what I am talking about.

Well when I can’t sleep, naturally I don’t want to get up at my normal time in the morning. Nope. Don’t want to do it. AT ALL. I went back to sleep for 10 minutes. By then my dog wanted to go outside so she was nudging my face and shaking so the tags on her collar jingled together. Fanci, just 5 more minutes PLEASE. I turn on the television for background noise because I do intend to get up to workout but I just need a few more minutes with my eyes closed. Then I think to myself, if I go back to sleep and just get up at 6 I can feel more rested and I can just do my workout this evening. I hear Montel Willaims’ voice on the tv, then another very distinct voice. One I’ve heard every morning for the past couple of weeks. Telling me to keep it up, push through it, “you can do anything for 60 seconds”, Autumn Calabrese. My eyes flutter open and on the tv is the infomercial for 21 Day Fix. Fitting since that is the workout I am trying NOT to do right now, sleep sounds a lot better. I look at the clock and it is 5:18, sigh, get up Kaneka. Get up. Ok, Ok, Ok. I’m up.

This morning was a struggle. We all have those times when we just do not want to do it, do not want to work out, do not want to get up. I understand. It is a battle that I have often. Far too often if I am honest. Today I won that battle. I am victorious and I live to fight another day!

I got up, I did my Upper Fix, I made my breakfast, I started dinner (in the crockpot), I packed my lunch, I got showered and dressed and I headed out to work. I did it. It wasn’t easy or simple or even logical. But my workout for the day is done. I didn’t give in today. I didn’t allow myself to talk me out of doing what I have dedicated to do, for me. I need this. I needed that pep talk. I needed to be able to overcome my own “limitations”. And I did.

There is a different message on the chalkboard behind them for every workout. Today’s was “It doesn’t get easier, you get stronger”. I felt that and it empowered me to give it my all during my workout today. I am so glad that I got up and got it done.

It doesn't get easier You just get better

Do you have a story about how you got over a hump in your routine? Had to fight yourself to get your workout done? Didn’t succeed in that fight? I want to hear your story. I want to encourage you in your journey. Please share below.

Have a TERRIFIC TUESDAY lovelies!!

~~Kaneka~~

Monday!

Well the weekend is over and I’m pleased with myself. I made good choices, did my workouts, and had a great weekend.

Last night for dinner I made spaghetti. Well I had spaghetti squash with the meat sauce and my husband and daughter had pasta noodles mixed with a little spaghetti squash. Small swaps work wonders. I love pasta. Absolutely love it. No seriously I really do. At first I thought that it would be far too different to be a good alternative, but with this I don’t feel like I’m missing anything. I wasn’t raised eating this kind of food. Everything was quick and easy. Processed and boxed. With 7 kids my mother did what she could.

I learned that I loved squash a few years ago. Never thought I’d like it as much as I do. I’ve explored and tried so many things that I had never tried or heard of in the last few years, with my husband and daughter as my guinea pigs (who are totally sick of quinoa lol).

The crazy thing is my problem was not that I didn’t know or had no options in the last few years that my weight spiraled out of control. I chose to eat the wrong stuff because it was easy and quick. Even though the healthy stuff can be just as easy and quick.

Well here I am. Sticking to this thing because I’m over starting over and this journey is turning out to be quite delicious.

Any recipes or foods that you never thought you liked our never tried and once you did you loved it? Care to share what that was? I’m interested.

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Have a great week lovelies.
~~Kaneka~~