What have I gotten myself into? How much am I going to take on? Why was this a good idea? Can I live up to the hype that I’ve created for myself in my head? Will I finish this journey? Will I reach my goals? Can I?
Questions I have asked myself over the last few days. Dealing with death is never easy. Dealing with the death of someone you treasured is even harder. Dealing with the thought that eventually you’ll lose others is a very depressing situation. This is what I have been dealing with. This has ruled my mindset over the last couple of weeks. I’ve still been getting my workouts in, but I haven’t been willing to share anything more of myself. These feelings I thought I’d get over quickly aren’t dissipating. They are taking up refuge and making me crazy. They are horrifying and I hate to feel this way. It isn’t healthy and I am doing everything I can to shake it off. It isn’t easy in some situations but I’m talking about my feelings and getting it all out.
Well with that said I’ve been working hard at my fitness. Still logging my #giveit100 posts and uploading a video a day to Instagram. I’m still here, just not as present. As of today I’ll be working on that presence. I must get out of this funk. It is far too late to turn back now.
Have a great day lovelies!
Dramatic… Yeah it is. But I had that thought this morning. Let me backtrack a bit. One of my co-workers did a clean eating challenge with me a few weeks ago. She has also asked me to be her accountability partner in her journey. A title that I take seriously.
So I ask questions about what she ate over the weekend. Whether or not she packed her lunch. What she brought for a snack. I try to steer her away from the endless train of cupcakes that enter our office weekly. Hey she asked right? So I obliged.
But sometimes I feel like I am the food police. Just a little. Well maybe not as much once I think about it. I don’t tell her what not to do, I don’t tell her what she can or can’t eat. I will be that voice that helps sway her away from making choices that aren’t in line with her goals. I will ask if that cupcake will help her get to where she wants to be.
So I guess being the food police isn’t an awful thing at all. It is my way of helping out and in turn those who I help also help me remain accountable.
How do you remain accountable? Do you have friends or family members who will step in and help out when you feel like you need a push?
Have a great Tuesday Lovelies!
It seems like every other day at work something is being celebrated. Which means an overabundance of CUPCAKES. Beautifully decorated and smelling delectable. I have worked very hard these past three weeks to abstain, and today is no different. No cupcake for me, even though I want one so badly. It is even more difficult to refrain when I am baking the wonderful treats in my own kitchen. So I haven’t done any baking and probably won’t until the holiday season rolls around.
This doesn’t mean that I will never be able to enjoy sweets. It means that my goals are more important than that temporary satisfaction. My willpower is intact as this week closes. I have a few days left on the #21dayfix and I want to close it off with a bang!
Happy Friday lovelies! I hope this weekends greets you with good feelings and good choices.
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Well the weekend is over and I’m pleased with myself. I made good choices, did my workouts, and had a great weekend.
Last night for dinner I made spaghetti. Well I had spaghetti squash with the meat sauce and my husband and daughter had pasta noodles mixed with a little spaghetti squash. Small swaps work wonders. I love pasta. Absolutely love it. No seriously I really do. At first I thought that it would be far too different to be a good alternative, but with this I don’t feel like I’m missing anything. I wasn’t raised eating this kind of food. Everything was quick and easy. Processed and boxed. With 7 kids my mother did what she could.
I learned that I loved squash a few years ago. Never thought I’d like it as much as I do. I’ve explored and tried so many things that I had never tried or heard of in the last few years, with my husband and daughter as my guinea pigs (who are totally sick of quinoa lol).
The crazy thing is my problem was not that I didn’t know or had no options in the last few years that my weight spiraled out of control. I chose to eat the wrong stuff because it was easy and quick. Even though the healthy stuff can be just as easy and quick.
Well here I am. Sticking to this thing because I’m over starting over and this journey is turning out to be quite delicious.
Any recipes or foods that you never thought you liked our never tried and once you did you loved it? Care to share what that was? I’m interested.
Have a great week lovelies.